Golden ‘Nigz’ Rong

I consider my self a procrastinator, so it may not surprise any of you, every time i am doing an assignment, i probably go to facebook. Well not probably, definitely, as I am writing this i have already gone on facebook like twice. Anyway, I was looking on facebook and its nonsense, seeing people, looking at my friends list, looking at girls and such, dont fucking tell me you dont do the same. Anyway, when i went to visit my friends facebook. I couldn’t recognize her. I remember her as a sweet, young innocent girl. Now shes wearing makeup, dressing differently, and seems to have transformed. Who she is, i wont fucking tell. Then i notice that everyones changed, were all different now than we were before.

I look at myself, and think I’m still the kid who can just get by school by not studying, and not doing shit, and only caring about shit that I like. But thats not the situation, I am barely studying, I am passing by on just what i remember. I got to fucking change and start studying more.

Then I look at myself, and think again, I am not who i use to be. I changed a lot. I use to be a short, out of shape, and stout piece of shit. Then I changed, I am not soo short, slightly out of shape, and a not soo short. But I really, just see this as a physical change, and its just how people perceive me.

Then i think have i matured mentally? I’ve gone thru a lot in the past 5 years, I had girlfriends, i had friends come and go, but the only thing that really stayed were:

my teammates-always helping me make myself a better person, making me push the limit, and strive for nothing but greatness. Much love to the black folk, Dwayne, Javien, Adolph, Kingsly, and Justin (also Drew, but your not black). You all have enriched my world with your views, opinions and how things roll.

3 1/2 Chinamen, Louie (You get your own shout out cause i didn’t know where to catagorize you, no homo), helped me grow as an artist, had ppl to go to when my desktop got attacked by viruses, because i was curious about korean porn. which by the way thanks soo much.

and then my newly found brothers. All of you have helped me on my journey to becoming a man, and understanding responsibility, and what it means to be the baddest motherfucker in all the land.

Each and everyone group of these guys have been there thru my growth, helped me mature as a person. I guess i did grow up, more of less.

So i guess, change happens, as a very wise clownfish once said to me, “As things change and grow, we change and grow, along with our understanding of things.”

Soo the basic reason for this post is, cause i needed some time to avoid facebook, and also i needed a new blog entry idea.